Mysterious Traveler- that was the first time my daughter-in-law has ever mentioned what happened in those final moments. We had just left the room moments before, after singing Twinkle Twinkle to Beatrix; I had literally just arrived at the hospital after a frantic drive from Dallas to Chicago, after a night when my son had called and told us she had rallied. As soon as we got there, the palliative care nurse told us to go say goodbye. I won't say more, but this is why it scares us so much. I cannot post a picture- cannot figure out how to do- of Alexis, who has her own struggles. Please God none of you every have to face this- and I know of some here who have. I would have given my heart to save her.
Beatrix could not cry. Her vocal cords were scarred from 4 mos of NICU intubation. My kids had to wake every 2 hours each night to check on her and feed her. She never stopped smiling and was incredibly observant. Sorry, I go on here.
But on topic, this paper by John Ionnidas, one of world's leading biostatisician epidemiologistshttps://www.statnews.com/2020/03/17/...reliable-data/ is so telling: we have no idea- despite the protestation of some here- about incidence and spread. None. I spoke to my son last night. The 1 case in the local nursing home overnight has risen to 22. I suggested he leave town- go to his brother's house 2.5 hours away in Iowa, or to my folks' house in Detroit, where they could be locked away and safe. He told me a student's parent (he teaches) had offered him the use of their rural cabin up in WI, but he was afraid to go because he would not be close enough to a hospital.
I am weary of the glut of information. The British data mentioned above- the scary data- is scary, but it is nothing more than a model that makes a lot of assumptions. It is worst case. But the crush of speculation- will we be isolated for 2 weeks, a month, 6 months, etc.? Who knows, but it raises angst and worry. Schools are closing- can my son keep his job, when his daughter requires so much medical intervention? Will I? My brother is in danger- his surplus store was always skinny, and now this? He may not be able to stay in business. I might get $1000, but yesterday I had to cancel out purchasing a new home- too much risk now, lost too much money, might not be able to move, etc. Life will not ever be the same for anyone, ever.
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